The mess that was 2019 has finally come to an end and what a whirlwind it has been.
I started writing this at the end of December, having found myself drawn to my blog after far too long. I end the year, doing what I should I have been doing this entire year - writing on the blog that I used to love, the blog that I want to fall back in love with, with an overwhelming urge to write I find myself happily at my laptop, curled up on the sofa.
Over the past few years, I’ve spent my time debating about what I should, could and want to to do; what could be acceptable and how it would be perceived. I rarely look to share these thoughts in the ironically labelled ‘Think Pieces’ as I’ve always hated feeling exposed or vulnerable. Written, or out loud, I’ve never really been a sharer - often using silence, side-eyes and jokes as my ways of coping with frustrations and emotions. But, after spending a year ‘out’ I’ve decided to start the year as I mean to go on - happy and writing - and this is the promise I’ve made to myself.
2019 was a pivotal year for me. It’s been the year that has both broken and defined me, and, if I’m honest, I think I might be carrying some of these issues into 2020. That being said, I’m going to try my best to be honest with myself and focus the new year on growing as a person, developing my career and following my passions in life; whatever they may be. With that said peeps I shall share my only resolution for 2020 - stop procrastinating.
It’s broad but essential, and despite me not having a crystal ball to see into the future, I know that I want as little as possible to hold me back.
So what does my ideal 2020 look like?
There a few big and small things that would make 2020 sick, to be honest:
Full of savings - I’m great when it comes to saving every month, that said, I’m equally good at spending it. Meaning when it gets towards the end of the month, I’m looking at my account like “damn Daniel”. This. Has. To. Change. This year, I’m making proper use of my Monzo card to give myself a strict monthly budget while the remainder of my money sits in my main account untouched, to pay bills and move into my ISA. Time to save save save.
Travel that little bit more - Near or far I don’t mind as long as I don’t waste the year again. At the moment, I’ve got a sweet little two-week package trip to Singapore, Thailand, Malaysia and a few other places booked for the end of February - March, and I’m hoping to get a couple of mini-breaks throughout the remainder of the year.
Have my own place - I’m putting this one further down the list because it’s definitely not something that will be happening until muchhhh later in the year if this year at all. But it’s something I want to achieve in the next couple of years. For now, I’m heavily focusing on the saving side of things
Developing and growing as a person - 2020 is all about growth and this year I’m making sure I stop at nothing to develop as a person in every possible way.
To my past self,
I know you did the best to manage your feelings and emotions, and you did the best with what you could. When breaking point came, you turned to the right people and didn’t say no to an opportunity when it came knocking. Thank you for making it this far, and for not turning into a full-on bitch, I’ve got it from here babes…
I’m ready for the ups and downs that I know are to come, hopeful that the good times will outweigh the not so great ones. I’m ready for the new decade which will see me turn 30, and hope that I’ll turn the big 3-0 at my absolute happiest. Most of all I’m ready for all the new memories.
Please 2020, don’t be shit.